Mopey.

It such a nice day, the birds are chirping, the sun is out and it says its 72 degrees on my phone... And where am I? In my room, on my iPad; moping.

Ill tell you why, I am planning on moving to Nevada in about three weeks and I have been packing. I should be totally up the wall excited and happy... But I'm not. Instead I want to cry and hide in my covers. I am overly stressed and I can't calm myself down. Reasons being:

1. I've got a good job here. I love it, it's what I want to do. What happens when I leave! What if I never get a job like that again? Then I left for nothing and I'm an asshole.

2. I know I have family there to support me but what if I can't get my shit together? Then I am a burden on them and I don't have have my shit together. So once again I'm an asshole.

3. And the biggest reason.. Money. I was super happy that I was maybe moving and I knew moving isn't free, just like everything else in the world... However now I am super stressed because I am trying to fit most of my things into a big suitcase, a carry on and then one or two storage boxes. I have gotten rid of so many things already and I can't stop thinking that this move won't even be worth it because I'm stressing about money. So when I get down there, two boxes and my dogs are going to be sent my way and I keep getting reminded on how expensive it's going to be... Is it worth it? Maybe I should just stay in this godforsaken shit hole. I don't know.

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I've decided.

I've decided that I would rather be that crazy dog lady that makes Pinterest birthday hats for her 12 "fur babies" and children throw rocks at than get married.

 

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We are...

in Raleigh, North Carolina!! Woohoo. We went to our first concert of two today after a 15 hour trip. I don't have many pictures right now, so when I get them on here I will post.

But in the meantime, it's beautiful here. It said it was supposed to be thunder storming for the whole time we were here but honestly it has been pretty close to perfect weather! I am so happy it has turned out this way!

 

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May Day!!

Happy May first! Hope everyone was good!

I have 5 days and about 32 minutes until my flight for Raleigh! Can you tell I'm pretty excited? :)

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Minor Updates.

Not too much from the 17th until now has happened. I still have not put those pictures on my iPad like I said I was going to do (I have been lazy). So honestly, I haven't a clue when those will be put up, I'm so bad at remembering.

I have been mostly working, which has been really tough on my body. I am so exhausted from work its insane, along with being sick since October almost, just has worn me out. I am super ready for summer.

I did actually house sit this weekend. That was nice because I had Mariah and Emily come over for some movies. But I don't think I made the house owner too happy with me. She had me leave the key at the house, which sucks a lot because I am always responsible; I was late getting to the house after work. I felt frazzled because I was getting like a gazillion phone calls and texts! I don't do well under pressure and I seriously wanted to shut down because I was trying to juggle almost four things at once. I ended up at the house (obviously) however I am not too sure I will be house sitting in the near future.

My sister does now know what she got for her birthday. Which we leave for in about 8 days. I am flying herself and I out to North Carolina to go see an Imagine Dragons concert and an AWOLNATION & Smashing Pumpkins Concert. I am super nervous/ excited for it. It'll be a nice break in the last few weeks of school for her & I and an awesome experience! I will be taking a bunch of pictures for that so be prepared for a post. It will happen. I'll just have to write it down to remember haha.

Uhm, another travel update: my cousin has changed my ticket for the summer. So I will be flying down earlier and going somewhere different than expected. I will be going to Denver and road tripping with her and two babies and three dogs to Nevada. It's gonna be quite the experience haha. :) I am excited for that as well. I am going to admit I did have a little personal waterworks festival, I was sad because I will be missing my birthday with my parents and siblings by a day. And also I had signed up for the Color Run with my mom, which I will miss. I don't know why I get so upset over it because my mother is fine with it and I have an awesome summer set up for me! I think I am just too hormonal. Good lord! :) No, but I am super excited for summer. It will be tons of fun.

Oh, I got my pups to the vet. Ricky is on meds for his gums, he got microchipped and a rabies prick. He will have to get blood tests done for Cushing's but otherwise he is good for travel and everything else considering he is 13 years old. Thunder was microchipped and has a slight heart murmur but is good to go for travel as well. So that is good news considering moving is an option in the near-ish future.

Well keep smiling, my comrades! I will be posting soon! :)

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Ugh.

Sometimes I feel like I have got everything together and I know what I want to do with my life ..

Then I start to panic and question myself. Needless to say, I don't know if this is the only thing I want to do with my life. I really want to pursue a degree on Holocaust and Genocide Related Studies. Study in Israel, visit the camps in Poland and Germany...

Then I remember I have an awesome job with money flow. To go back to school, would to basically cut in half or all of my money out of the picture.. Perhaps I will just take courses through Yad Vashem.

I don't know. I'm almost frustrated to the point, I would rather cry than work or go back to school.

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Snow Day.

Well, first off sorry for not being on here for the first 9 days of April. It's actually been quite a busy week. So nothing that's too important, that I can remember, has happened except for this:

Snow day. Yup snow day. Today I didn't have work because the schools closed down due to icy road conditions and snow accumulation. And anyone who knows Alaska, knows they don't shut schools down very often at all. So to say the very least, it sucked.

It started snowing on Saturday, I had to drive into Eagle River to get Thunder shaved {insert shaved Thunder here}

Awww! Yeah yeah yeah. That was a big ordeal in itself because I forgot his rabies vaccination papers at home and forgot which vet he got them and his plane certificate in Nevada from. That was fun.

Anyways, it was seriously white out conditions from Tanaina to Eagle River. It was scary and insane and disheartening. And from Saturday all the way until this morning it had been POURING snow. So as stated before, we had snow day. The dogs and I ventured out and got some really good pictures (I think).

(This was on Saturday. It was pouring snow. My phone didn't catch the montser flakes though.)

 

This picture is super funny because Momo is known to photobomb as many pictures as possible. I think she seriously sees a camera and plans to somehow get herself in the shot. So this was funny to me that there she is! Tiny Momo.

Thunder wasn't so keen on having is picture taken after I threw him in the snow a few times. Haha.

 

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